But, we're ending it in a really good, positive place.
Millie is a riot these days. She is flying all over the house on all fours now, getting more confident at pulling herself up to standing, and is in the very, very early stages of learning to cruise.
She is consistently saying dada and mama. She sand "num" the other day, and, if you listen closely you can make out approximations for kitty, no, and Elmo.
Her favorite place in the house is atop the couch, a sectional upon which crawls from one end to the other and back. Over and over and over again.
It's beautiful to watch.
Lola, meanwhile, is slowly overcoming some fears of school and is getting more confident in herself. We've been working a lot in recent months on building her self-confidence, her self-esteem. We want her to really trust in herself.
She's still our girly-girl princess, who would rather spin around in a tutu indoors than go outside and play in the mud. She hates to have her hair washed, but she loves to laugh and to make other people laugh.
She now is making up songs, telling stories and drawing out her make-believe scenes in pictures.
Her favorite pastime is flying, as in running leaps. From the couch to the floor, from the bed to to a beanbag chair, whatever and wherever.
She is our delightful 4-year-old, working to try to understand the world around her. She questions everyone on everything, from vocabulary to astronomy to medicine (science stuff).
She is our sweetheart, a little girl who likes to pretend to be tough but really is a gentle little soul.
You never know what life will bring.
At this time last year I was looking forward to 2012, pondering whether we might get a dog, thinking maybe we would start with a hamster. I thought that, by now, our long-planned bathroom remodel might be complete.
I never could have predicted the last 12 months of our lives. Not a single minute of it.
And I certainly won't try to do so for 2013.
But I really hope that my biggest problem next year is deciding whether to get a hamster or a dog.
And I really, really hope we pick the hamster.
Happy New Year.
- Bethany :)